// 21 May 2013 11:52PM//
I don’t know when you’ll ever initiate conversations as often as I do. It’s been a year now. I wish you could… Want to talk to me as much as I want to talk to you. Do you know how fucked up/extremely annoying I feel whenever you don’t reply me? May sound exaggerating but, sigh.
I wish. I really do. I wish to not initiate conversation anymore, but I’m afraid you’ll feel like something’s amiss. I’m afraid you’ll feel like how I’m feeling right now, and I don’t want you to feel upset. But I really need you right now. Can you see it?
To someone else:
You don’t just leave someone hanging like that. No. You don’t just also leave someone hanging, only to come back later and start small talk and pretend nothing’s happened. Do you expect everything to be back to where it was? Back to how we were like? No. Don’t bother trying to even save both. I’d rather you stick with her now. Just know that it hurts like fuck to talk to you or even see you nowadays. You’re the first to make me experience this “hanging” feeling. And I think I’m really starting to harbor negative feelings towards you. But how can I ever hate you. Thing is, you make it so difficult.
Don’t make me harbor hatred towards you again.
And finally the last someone:
You have to not entertain me so often. Yeah, haha, we both got left hanging by those two. Funny how things are reversed now. Not that I mind. You listen to me. You hear my mindless rattle. Tell me stuff you’ve never told anyone. I feel important you know? I really do. Thank you for all that you’ve done. I really appreciate it.